Communication seems to be a very strong form of tool to transmit our feelings, letting the other party knows how we feel and how we perceive certain things. Sometimes, this do breaks down when our thoughts are not brought forward to the next person properly. Worst may happen when words may be twisted and misunderstanding may occur. No matter what misunderstanding there may or have been, I have already come to an understanding of the whole issue. There's no right or no wrong and I hope that me, who have kinda over reacted to the whole issue, will be absolved.
It's so true that if we spend that extra amount of money, we can actually buy happiness. I have actually placed pressure on others in order to buy that happiness. In doing so, aren't I also acting on my own self-interest? Shouldn't I just place myself in others' shoes and make others happy? This is the form of happiness that I should pursuit.
GET LOST FOR NOW.
11:06 PM
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
[My Clinique Loots!]
I have been very into Clinique skincare products recently, brought mum to Tangs the other day and got the above skincare products. Reatil therapy is really a good form of chasing away the unhappines that have got into me recently. I have learnt to give and take and not expect things to always go in my way. Even if things don't go in my way, I must never have a revengeful heart. Just view matter in another perspective and take things lightly.....together with retail therapy, I have been cured instantly! *grins*
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3:09 AM
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Friday, March 23, 2007
[It became heavier...]
Couldn't get to sleep... I thought the heavy burden that weighed so much in me has been lifted. But I was wrong. Things has been made worst after I know of the truth. It's like someone pushing me back into the deep water after I tried to grasp a breath from the water surface. The feeling is bad. I totally cannot imagine how someone can be like that. Am I wrong to feel this way? But I suddenly come to realise that perhaps this had happened to me because of the past bad debts that I have incurred. What goes around comes around. Call me a emo-sensitive-think-too-much freak. But I am like that.
GET LOST FOR NOW.
9:26 AM
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
[Give and take...]
Don't know why, even after I have confronted my feelings, deep inside, I can still taste the tinge bit of sourness. I even wanted to hold grudges against others that makes me want to slap myself in order to change my way of thinking. self-interest, self centered - everyone is like that. Should I put myself in other's shoes or should I stand up for myself? The former will work better I suppose. "Give and take...give and take..." That's what I should do...
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12:29 AM
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
[moody mouldy mood]
I realise when I am either sleepy or hungry, I will soon start to get very moody. Tightness in my chest makes me feel so uptight that I tend to clear my vessel by vesting out my anger. I wonder how I will react when I am very hungry+sleepy. One thing for sure, temperature in me will definitely shoot high up. Sorry gren for making you unhappy in the past due to my this moody character - that made you very unhappy every morning when you are all perky and happily awaiting a brand new school day. Till today, I have not changed and I don't think I will. It's hard *moody moody moody mood* =(
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12:06 AM
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
[Contingency plan?]
Sometimes I really don't understand how insensitive can some people get when the basic considering and thinking for others just vanishes. Bringing upon only one thing - disturbance - just like little innocents kids recking terror at one's vicinity. I do admit that sometimes when I am being too engrossed in my own space that I actually disregard the well-being of others. I am trying to kick this bad behaviour of mine now and I will change. Considering the fact that your ill-will actions will bring about disruption to others, I find it hard to surpress my feelings and much harder to surpress the urge to voice everything out, as i know of the harsh consequences that I will face. It's either a die-to-do plan or a amicable settlement. For my character, so to speak, I will choose the former for sure. ***I realise I type a way lot of rubbish when i am angry and tired -_-***
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2:56 AM
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
[I learnt something]
I went to ICA yesterday to collect my biometric passport as my current one is due to expire. I was rather shock when I learnt that there were around 150 people ahead of me in the queue. Turning rather impatient, I was already on my way to the exit when a call from my mum changed everything. She told me to wait patiently in the queue and get everything done since I have long wanted to update my passport since half a year ago. I tuned myself to the cartoons there and chatted with Ben on the phone to pass time. Luckily the queue moves pretty fast but all in all I still waited around 1.5 hours before I got my turn. Got my thumbprint taken into the system and signed some documents before I leave. My new picture on the passport looks terrible! I was thinking why can't they retain my IC no. as my passport number, rather than issuing me a new passport no. ? hmm.... Mock exams are officially over for me this coming monday but I only took one paper last monday as I was working before that. Alot of my friends and esp mum keep asking me why I want to work when I am actually still schooling. Usually i will just turn their questions away and move on to another topic but actually the main reason is not due to the salary that they are offering but more of me as an individual wanting to offer help to them when it's needed.Though work can be busy and tiring but time seems to pass so swiftly when work starts to pile up. I have learnt something important through my short term working experience recently. My company did not put me through proper training even before I start on the job, they just provided some brief tasks and instructions for me to follow through. I realised that actually they expect you to know what and how to complete the task that was given.Eventhough I am not taught particularly in this task given, I ought to go find out myself through my own means and get the task done. Sometimes, it seems more like making myself sillier by saying things like:"I don't know. I am not sure." While giving a firm answer like:"Yes this is it and no this isn't" proves otherwise. Though I always expect to be spoon-fed(which makes life much easier), I should and must learn to be independent and find out my own solution to the problem. It may seems to be the harder way through, but believe me, at the end of the day, you'll change someone's mindset about you and the task given will be completed sooner than you ever think it will.
