a little place called heaven

Monday, June 25, 2007

[forlorn to be ?]

sometimes I really can't stand how they react when it comes to a point where their help is needed.

Shrinking responsibilities and not willing to face the problem together.

Or rather,

they chose an easier way out by pushing their responsibilities to others.

It's sad to know how your own kin do things that hurt you - weakening your relationship and leaving you feeling that there's actually no kinship for you in this world.

On one hand you feel very disgusted by what they have done, on the other something just pierce through you that made you feel the immediate pain.

Is money the only solution in this world?

If this is the root of all evil, why can't we just live without it?

Easier said than done, it's indeed despairing to know that what you wish for may not be what you get.

I just hope for a better way which the situation can be turned into.

GET LOST FOR NOW.
3:23 PM

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

[Menotti]
Just met my girlie pals for dinner just now at Menotti, an Italian resturant that serves superb pasta and other Italian cruisine. The best things is their affordable and mouth watering desserts makes me crave for more...I had this simple mushroom and bacon cream pasta while Gren and Rain ate set dinners. From the appetizers to main course to desserts to coffee, every single serving seems to be served with perfection. I especially love their spinach soup, super tasty and I never knew that such vegetable soup tasted so good. It makes me want to learn to make all kinds of delicious western soups...hmmm must be because I don't like instant soups that's why when I am able to slurp on such gd home-made soup, I feel that it makes the meal complete! Sad to say, we didn't have a chance to take pictures of our food cuz we were just too hungry! haha

It's good that I am able to do some catching up with the girls though Gren gotta leave for a conference meeting, I am still glad that we had dinner together. *all smiles* Real sorry to Suling for the JC gathering at boat quay as I sort of last minute tell her that we couldn't go =( Partly we weren't interested in drinking and partly I am really very very broke!Sorry! One of the worst years I have had with days of empty pockets, sighz...cuz I am paying for the trip to HK myself and that's why I am so broke!hai...And now, I am spending on my HK money that makes me pretty worried whether I will have enough for my trip...keke Anyway what can I do, I just gotta try to head out less and dine in more often - which is also pretty difficult la...*headache*

Anyways, there's a solution to every problem and I just gotta find a solution to it.

Recently, I have been eyeing on this new nokia N series handphone which Rain bought recently - N76. I wonder if my mum will buy it for me cuz it has been nearly 3 years since I changed my handphone. Though my handphone is working perfectly fine but I just feel like changing a new model...

I was telling Rain just now that I don't feel as excited as i do last time whenever I am able to upgrade my price plan and get a new handphone. Then we come to realise that it's because as we get older, we feel that tangible stuffs are less important compared to intangible ones. I totally agree with her because as I aged, I tend to come to an understanding that friends and families are such vital components in life that we can't do without. And as I grow older I soon come to realise what I really want and what I really care about - isit the financial status that i want? Isit the result that I achieve? Isit the position that I hold?

I guess not ba...I would not devote everything for the sake of such financial status.

I would rather hold an average paying job and devote more time for my friends and families than hold a high paying one which not only yields stress but also puts toil to my health.

Though in this realistic world such an ideology will soon be pushed back by the society, I still strongly stand on my beliefs.

Presenting the new N76: Tada!
And you can tell I go for the look of it rather than the fuctions..cuz I just went to search for the imagines only and not the functions of the phone haha
Looks like the motorola razer...doesn't it?
Looks of a handphone matters more to me than its functions...heehee

Is black or red nicer? =)

GET LOST FOR NOW.
12:38 PM

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

[I am lost...]
5am in the morning now but i can't get to sleep, I usually force myself to sleep in order to stop thinking about things. But even if I am able to get to sleep, I will end up waking up with bad headache, and that's what I am experiencing now...

Getting myself all busy in clearing up my room and doing things that I don't want to do.

Life seems to lost its sense of direction for me now, I am trying to find a focus point in life - hopefully that focus point will be my goal, my motive, something that pushes me forward.

Facing a new cross junction in life, it's difficult not to worry about it.

Weirdly, I prefer the days of my exmainations than now, at least I have something to work towards...

Anyway, I have decided to do something that I have always wanted to do later, I have been procrastinating from it so long and nothing should stop me from doing what I want.

It's swimming!!!Yeah!!! Something that will never let my moods go down..and if you do love swimming like I do, pls pls jio me to swim, I will be more than happy to join you...*grins*

GET LOST FOR NOW.
5:16 AM

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Monday, June 11, 2007

[Straightened up]
I got a sudden urge to start working.

Although I have been procrastinating myself from it for so long, I finally realise the need to work.

It's time.

Something happened that totally turned my thoughts into thinking that I need to be independent, need to count on myself and not always leaning or holding on to a support.

Suddenly feel that what i was thinking before the exams was way to childish and juvenile.

I don't look forward to holidays now anymore, but the HK holiday that has been planned will just mark the start of my working life after that.

I just gotta straigthened up my thoughts and turn into the right direction.

emoemoemoemo again...hai....

GET LOST FOR NOW.
7:40 AM

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Sunday, June 03, 2007

[Angel]
went for Mayday concert yesterday and went to watch the pirates right after the IR paper (got a bad feeling that I will fail this paper like how my watch fail me halfway through the paper) sighz...

been enjoying myself too much that my parents asked: so you finish your exams already?

me: errr....no? ....

I need to run this last lap now without slowing my speed down, without lagging behind everyone, I need that push. Can I do it? I doubt myself but nevertheless I will push myself harder, like someone pushing me from behind and urging me to run faster.

I need the strength! Jiayou ba Jas! Jiayou ba Jas!

I uploaded a new song, such a nice song to indulge in....lalalala...

GET LOST FOR NOW.
8:58 AM

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