I pretended to stay asleep in bed just now - guess I wouldn't have done that 17 years ago when my neighbour's daughter got married. She was my nanny and she has 7 daughters!!!Gosh!!! I never failed to attend any of her daughters wedding as a flower girl...but yet on this very day...they locked me in the house. I was dressed up prettily that day in my usual white dress, aniticipating the bride to bring me away. When I heard noises, I rushed towards the door but was stopped. My mum disallowed me to go with them, I remembered her trying to come out with some reasons but I cried it all away...I kept crying, occasionally peering through little gaps to see if someone will come for me. After all the noises died away, I lost all hope...
Till today, I remember clearly what happened, I guess it's those little stuffs that kids remember. But till now, I still don't know why they don't allow me to go, I guess it should be some superstitious way of thinking of what year of pig(which is me) clashes with the bride/groom...
Till today,I still wish that they let me out to see the bride...
I definitely wouldn't stay in bed like just now...
Actually, it's just my refusal to do something that I don't want to do
I am not procrastinating but just that I do not wish to walk you through
To me, it's more like walking you into your dreams but into my nightmare
But yet, I am walking away from reality...
I would be most gladful to walk you through the aisle like your next kin
and give you my blessings right till the end
But yet, I do not wish to walk you through now.
I wondered if what i have done was wrong...
hmmm....=?
