Haven't been blogging for sometime and for some reason, I have lost the drive to blog. For this xmas season of jolly and joy, I have received a considerable amount of presents and also spent a cosiderable amount on presents. But yet on this special ocassion I would only wish for either one of these gifts below:
1) Time Machine
2) Memory Eraser Machine
many bad occurances fell upon me and for some reasons or another I would want to either turn back time and changed what it's destinated to happen or to just erase unwanted memoried out of my head. Sometimes it's just tough to go against your heart and do what your mind tells you to, I am always letting my emotions run over me but yet I have no control over it. Everything just fall upon me like no reason. I blame no one else but myself. My retribution, my ill-fated life and wrong doings that I have done in whatever ways.
I went pp to do my nails today and I was so touched by the manicurist as she understands how I feel. A total stranger learnt of my feelings with just a few sentences of conversation. If a stranger can actually feel for me, why can't others who are closer to me do so? I always thought that life will be a smooth path down for me but that seems to not be the case, the path seems to be curvy, whiny with lotsa unwanted barriers. I hope I can overcome all these by myself and bring my topsy turvy life to a stop... Wishing everyone a Merry merry Christmas...=)
